I Know

I know for a fact
there’s not gonna be
another you
or another us.

And I know
I can’t grow another heart,
can’t shape my wounds
into butterflies.

But I don’t know
why I keep growing older
while time stands still.

I don’t know
why the seasons still change
when the world stopped spinning.

It’s bizarre
how many places I’ve been
when I haven’t moved an inch.

I tried running,
I tried walking,
I tried crawling.

But all I get is
one step forward,
one step back.

As if life
were an endless burning desert
and no matter how far I go,
I’m still where you left me.

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